Thoughts on Life – Beautifully Broken

Seeking Attention in all the Wrong Places

I guess it can be said that I am an attention seeker. Although, if I were left to describe myself, I’d say that I am much more of a “validation seeker,” than a true attention hunter. I cry out, but not in the sense of claiming wolves. No, I cry out to be seen, heard,Continue reading “Seeking Attention in all the Wrong Places”

The Heavy Weight of Little Things

It’s often my lack of choice, combined with my silenced voice that turns the small issues in my life into raging beasts. A single raindrop would not be a storm were it not for someone counting on a sunny day. A paper cut would not be an injury were someone not dependent on a perfectContinue reading “The Heavy Weight of Little Things”

Sleepless in the Middle of Nowhere

It’s nights like these when my brain and my body do not communicate well. One wishes to sleep in the comfort of my slightly itchy blanket, while the other is restless and wants to communicate with everyone I know. I crave laughter. I crave conversation. I crave answers to questions that I didn’t even knowContinue reading “Sleepless in the Middle of Nowhere”

Internal Struggles

There is a strong chance that I would rarely use the word “confident” to describe myself. I’m sure that in the social world, I appear to carry myself with self-awareness and assertiveness, but the truth is: I’m a fraud. Every single thing I do that even appears to have a sheen of savvy, or abilityContinue reading “Internal Struggles”

Borderline Book Boredom :(

Anyone who knows me knows that I’m OBSESSED with books, especially children’s books. I have THOUSANDS of books, some duplicated, and even triplicated because my library is so disorganized that I can never find what I’m looking for. When I can’t find the book I perceive I need, I buy another copy. I never thinkContinue reading “Borderline Book Boredom :(“

Dads Against Daughters Dating GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!

Here we go again: another day of my friend posting photos of his 12 year old daughter, and the slew of misogynistic comments that follow. How many of these are shared on his page weekly? I gave up counting. “Oh, you’re going to be in trouble with her! Wait until the boys start showing upContinue reading “Dads Against Daughters Dating GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!”

Nowhere to Hide

I live my life surrounded by people. At work, I interact with no less than 250 people daily, although I am present with closer to 550 people in my space. I share my living space with people. I drive roads filled with other people equally trapped in their own vehicles. I run errands in placesContinue reading “Nowhere to Hide”

Am I Invisible?

I used my words. I spoke my truth. My voice was thrown to the wind. It’s 2022, basically all things in life are related to memes, right? The meme on my mirror says basically says that we have to be okay with people not believing our truths, that we have to understand that our truthsContinue reading “Am I Invisible?”

Restorative Rest

Years ago my best friend introduced me to the concept of “restorative rest.” She told me that simply resting, or doing nothing wasn’t necessarily helping me recover from exhaustion; I needed to seek out activities, or practices that truly felt healing, and powerful for my mind, body, and soul. That resonated: hard. I tend toContinue reading “Restorative Rest”

Stranded

I live in the middle of nowhere; where sunrises look like a boreal version of the Serengeti, and coyotes lull me to sleep with their songs. The aesthetic is exceptional. I have the pleasure of encountering beautiful creatures on a daily basis. The joy is never lost. My excitement never fades. I feel honoured withContinue reading “Stranded”