Written by: Stephanie Petska
Have you ever felt completely unqualified to fulfill a task, where you’ve whispered, “God are you sure you want me to do this?” “Buts” and “what ifs” rattle your mind while your heart pleads for a way out, thinking there are many others who are surely more qualified than you.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 NIV
In my own “I’m not enough tantrums”, insecurity has gotten the best of me. I want to stall, hide, or give up. But in small, subtle ways God always reminds me that it is not about me, it’s about magnifying Him and His glory.
Throughout the Bible, God highlights heroes who feel unqualified to fulfill their calling just like we have. What we learn from those heroes is they too were ordinary people who God equipped to do extraordinary things.
One of those heroes is Mary, the mother of Jesus. Looking at Mary, I see a girl who surely did not feel worthy or able to bear and raise the son of God. She was just a poor girl from a humble family with little expectation that her life was going to be any different than most. But Mary loved God and wanted to serve Him with all her heart.
When the angel Gabriel came to Mary to tell her she was chosen and favored by God to be the mother of His son, despite her own fear, she answered, “I am the Lord’s servant…may your word to me be fulfilled.” (Luke 1:38 NIV).
How amazing to see the beauty of obedience through the actions of a humble teenager. Here I sit in my 40’s, still knee deep in insecurity, wondering when or if I’ll ever have it all together.
When I’m asked to write or speak, fear and doubt creep in, comparison robs my joy, and I’m left thinking, “God, how can I make a difference? How will my words be different from those who have already shared? Can my story really be used?”
Did you notice Mary’s words of obedience? She didn’t say, “Really Lord? But I’m only a teenager? What will people think or say? I can’t bear or raise the Son of God. Are you sure you came to the right house?” Mary didn’t make it about her, she just wanted to please the Lord.
We learn a lot from Mary. Her bold faith realigns our thinking to be less about us and more about Him, for His glory, not ours. We can follow her example by saying, “Yes, Lord, I will use the gifts you’ve given me; I will surrender my weaknesses, I will trust. May your word to me be fulfilled.”
And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.” (Roman 8:30 NIV)