Written by: Nikki Laureano
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: the old is gone, the new is here!” 2 Corinthians 5:17 NIV
When I look back at my life, I can see several “new beginnings,” with each season a new chapter. One of my favorites to date is the day I had a powerful spiritual awakening and was overcome by the Holy Spirit. It was a day that changed the trajectory of my life for good.
“You fill me with joy in your presence.” Psalm 16:11b NIV
That day, I heard His soft whisper prompting me to surrender. It was one of the most uncomfortable and welcoming feelings I have ever experienced.
But no matter how uncomfortable it felt, I could not walk away as a mere observer of Christian faith. I can’t explain it, but something changed deep inside of me, and I knew I had to walk in a posture of surrender to His wonder and power from that day forward.
I will be honest, I had absolutely no clue what I was doing when I first started walking with the Lord. I was simply ignorance on fire!
I did not know anything about the Bible and couldn’t recite the commandments for the life of me. But I knew I was loved deeply and that I was created with purpose.
My awareness became heightened and tuned into all things Him and I realized that He had been with me all along. The flood of memories that had the breath of God all over them filled my mind like a dam whose gates were at capacity and they gave me life.
That day, God gave me a new heart and a new perspective through which I saw the world around me. It was almost like layers of my mind were breaking off like crust.
“Then he said to the crowd, ‘If any of you wants to be my follower, you must give up your own way, take up your cross daily, and follow me.’” Luke 9:23 NLT
The old me was dead. Things in my life started to change so rapidly it blew my hair back.
I was repulsed by my old habits, but not in a shameful way. It was the kind of repulsion that makes you want to open the blinds and clean the stagnant dust from the dark corners of your life.
“Do not be conformed to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.” Romans 12:2 NLT
In a simple, powerful moment, God showed me the meaning of my life and my purpose. He became a fire burning inside of me, and there was no turning back.
He was and still is slowly breaking me open in the best way possible. Like a seed planted in rich soil, weathering great storms, but cared for and loved by a glorious Creator.
In the beginning of my walk with the Lord, He saw me in my brokenness, stepped inside of my mess, picked me up, and carried me out. And when He finally removed the blindfold I had grown so comfortable wearing, I was able to stand in the truth of who I am as the daughter of a King!
Now, I carry my cross every day instead of my shame and my chains. He held me close that day and whispered “I am here, my child. As I’ve always been. I love you. I have engraved you on the palms of my hands. You are mine. You are my masterpiece.” And today, sister, He whispers the same to you!
Lord, we are so grateful that you are a God who desires us to walk in rhythm with Your heart beat. Lord, I pray this week that we would open our hearts and minds to the Kingdom cues that surround us daily so we can sit in Your presence a little longer. Amen!