Written by: Dawn Stewart
Hearing from the Lord was a foreign concept for me for most of my life. I grew up believing in God, and that I should pray to God, but I never understood that God wanted to talk to me. In fact, it was probably never something I even considered to be possible. To think that the God of the Universe would want to talk to me!
If you think about it, when we – as human beings – want to reach someone badly enough, we will try any means possible. How much more then, will God – our Creator – not stop at anything until He reaches us? I mean, He is God, after all, He is not limited by anything. When He wants us to hear from him – we are going to hear from Him.
When I arrived at the place where I became desperate enough to actually change, God took hold of me. He met me in a hospital room of a treatment center, where I was coming face to face with the reality of the disease alcoholism.
I must be honest in saying that I was not actively pursuing Him as my life spiraled out of control, but it turned out that He was actively pursuing me. Psalm 18:16-19 paints a beautiful picture of how God pursues us. I cling to this verse as my personal testimony of what God did for me.
“He reached down from on high and took hold of me; he drew me out of deep waters. He rescued me from my powerful enemy, from my foes, who were too strong for me. They confronted me in the day of my disaster, but the Lord was my support. He brought me out into a spacious place; he rescued me because he delighted in me.” (NIV)
So, how did I hear from God that very first time? Through song. The King of kings and Lord of lords met me in the words “…I am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow, a wave tossed in the ocean, a vapor in the wind.” He gripped my heart through the lyrics, “Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth, would care to know my name, would care to feel my hurt…not because of who I am, but because of what you’ve done, not because of what I’ve done, but because of who you are….”
I didn’t realize it at the time, but God was using the song “Who Am I” by Casting Crowns to minister the truth of His amazing grace to my heart. He was using this song to soften my heart and prepare me for what was to come. I must have listened to that song at least 1,000 times while in that hospital.
God still uses music to minister to my soul. I have listened to and worshiped with hundreds of artists and probably thousands of songs at this point. Although He most certainly speaks to me in other ways, this has been one of the most powerful modes of communication for me.
Has there been a particular song that the Lord has used to minister to you? How does worship music impact you? Share a song in the comment section that has really impacted you in your walk.